Have any of you experienced crying with the feeling you cannot stop?

Bengal

Expanding on Coleman's question about depression and anger; have any of you experienced bouts of just uncontrollable weeping? Not because of pain or anxiety, fear or depression but just a feeling of utter despair that takes over your whole body and mind. This has happened to me. I have to just let it runs it's course and it does seem to have a cathartic effect. I will take a Xanax at times to bring it under control.

GregP_WN

Sorry that you're having these downtimes. While I haven't had that type of thing this time, I had some spells in the previous 3 diagnoses that put me into depression. This time I have a strange, almost opposite effect. I don't feel depressed, slightly angry, and a feeling of, so what, another diagnosis? OK, let's get on with it. I can't explain it, I didn't have this type of feeling at all during the first 3. I have read countless descriptions here on the website with people having what you're going through. If it's any consolation, it's a phase, and it will pass.

Lynne-I-Am

Many of us poo poo the idea of depression. I did not think I was depressed, but my doctor said the crying every time my diagnosis was mentioned indicated this. So I reluctantly went on a mild everyday anti- depressant while in chemo and the tears dried up and the determination strengthened. After treatment I stopped the pills. Not everyone needs medication but it is helpful and a useful tool if needed.

Bengal

Thanks, Lynne-I-Am. My doctor also suggested a "mild" about-depressant with "few"side effects. When I looked it up one of the side effects was "could trigger a cerebral - vascular event". I have high blood pressure and a history of stroke in my family. I said, "no thank ypu"/

Bengal

Well, for some reason that sent before I was finished writing it and spellchecker has chosen to "help me out" once again. Obviously I meant anti-depressant and I never got to finish the last sentence. Anyway, I find the "cure" can often just trigger more problems but I do appreciate your input.

cak61

You are not alone.
Time has made it better.

ChildOfGod4570

What you are going through is perfectly normal. We all go through bouts of crying on a journey such as this. I know my crying jags were at thier worst when I was on chemo, but they eased up during surgery, radiation, and exit from active treatment. At those times, I just felt tired. I think what is happening to you now happens to us all at one time or another. I was told to take antidepressants, but I refused to take more drugs and have more side effects; so I just toughed it out. I tried crafting, watched warm and fuzzy TV shows that surely wouldn't mention cancer ... shows like Waltons and Little House On The Prairie. I also emerced myself into computer projects that became a hobby I carry to this day. If you are having these crying spells, sometimes it just helps to have someone to hold you or simply treat you like you're still in perfect health. I will never forget the day I was pretty run down from chemo and hadn't felt like a "normal" person since the cancer diagnosis. I was at my parents' house, and as I was finishing some lunch, Mom blessed me with a bowl of ice cream! I felt like I never ha dcancer that day, and it sure does help to have that feeling even for a little while. I hope you feel better soon. HUGS and God bless.

Coopswifey

Hi Bengal. Those crying spells you’re speaking of describes me lately. I am done with treatments and I have been in remission for 3 months. I find my self teary all the time and I don’t feel as if nothing is wrong. It gets worst if someone tries to ask me about it or if they try to console me. I thought I was losing it. I don’t see my oncologist until February. I was too embarrassed to call him about this. It’s nice to know I’m not alone.

Bengal

Coopswifey, I am sorry you are experiencing this type of thing too but also, in a way, glad to learn that I am not alone in this. I have been out of treatment for slightly more than a year and a half and thought I had finally moved beyond having theses spells of weeping but recently they seem to be back. I think it's a combination of the long hours of darkness associated with northern winters, coping with my 94 year old mother being in a nursing facility, finding my sweet loving cat dead on the side of the road and scanxiety about more mammography and re-evaluation coming up in a few weeks. I start to just feel overwhelmed and then find myself weeping. I have talked to my counselor about it but haven't mentioned it to doctors. All they want to do is prescribe another medication and I do not want anymore of that.

MLT

Oh yes! My crying jags usually come in the morning and happen more often when I am tired and blood counts are low. Most of the time I can get thru it and move on, but seeing or talking to my closest friends will trigger crying. Onc told me it's ok to let out those emotions. We are all dealing with so much!