suzanne-10531

Like you, I now feel I was in a swiftly moving white-water rapids and was given options but didn't know how awful tissue expander is or how the mastectomy took away feeling and how radiation and lumpectomy on the other side would be so horrible and wish I had in the beginning had a double with no reconstruction. I have two unmatched hideous globs that are disguised as breasts under my clothes. I now have a lump again and have a mammogram tomorrow. Anger doesn't begin to describe it and I know exactly how you feel...I also feel bamboozled. Diagnosed February 2012 and left one mastectomy, then reduction on the other side in September 2012 and oops another tumor over there and had to have radiation. Scars are not straight or even. I don't know if I am facing my third bout of breast cancer but I dread tomorrow's mammogram. I just want to schedule the other mastectomy and remove the implant on the side that was already lopped off and just maybe...I might be able to buy a normal bra and get light padding or something to put in the cups so I might still look like a woman.